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I'm in a bit of a strange mood today.
I'm not that surprised: melancholy often walks hand-in-hand with being sick, but man, I'm feeling it today. The melancholy, though, seems secondary - more of a follow up to this indifference I often feel toward relationships and people in my life. Or perhaps it's a reaction to an oscillation between high-tensile affection and the aforementioned indifference. I think it comes down to this: Sometimes I don't trust myself enough to know how I feel about anything or anyone.
I don't want to be a need-based initiative. I'd rather think of myself as a person, and not just a collection of behaviors.
I'm not that surprised: melancholy often walks hand-in-hand with being sick, but man, I'm feeling it today. The melancholy, though, seems secondary - more of a follow up to this indifference I often feel toward relationships and people in my life. Or perhaps it's a reaction to an oscillation between high-tensile affection and the aforementioned indifference. I think it comes down to this: Sometimes I don't trust myself enough to know how I feel about anything or anyone.
I don't want to be a need-based initiative. I'd rather think of myself as a person, and not just a collection of behaviors.
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